Me, and my sister
Hey Denise.
It's been awhile. Not sure what's going on with you or how you are, so I figured I would take the initiative and make contact.
You know…it's always been that way. I have always been the one trying to keep the lines of communication open. It's always been me, looking for you. How many times have I come down to the east side, UBC, or wherever you were, to take you out someplace nice, then buy you drinks and ? I was on my way to Africa when I heard you were trying to kill yourself, (and no one wanted anything to do with you) so I got off the plane in Edmonton and flew back for 2 weeks. (I got you to court, dealt with your car, got your shit moved, talked Al into storing it, and I hauled you into Vancouver to the recovery house, left money for you, etc etc. with the last minute cancelation, and the rebook, and another rounder from Edmonton....that alone cost me an extra $2300)
I stayed at your place for a couple days when I was getting ready to move back to Van. I was still flush with cash, and paid my way. But when you were staying at my place in Ladner, who was paying for everything? (For 4 people, PLUS trying to get Carries truck on the road.)Who lent you the money to buy the dress you wore to Chelsea's wedding? And lent you spending money? (So much for paying ME back, you OR her.) (The fact that you and Carrie STOLE my car to drive to Sechelt is part of the reason why I lost my job, the real reason is that I was working on Carries truck at Murdys shop after hours..not theft like she says) Before that it was always me calling, it was always me supplying the wheels, the cash, the booze and/or drugs, and my time. (Which can't be replaced)
The only time you ever called me was when you were broke, scared, lonely, or needed a shoulder to cry on.
It's always been you, angry about your upbringing, angry about this or that, feeling sorry for yourself, always the victim, everyone else is to blame, and expecting me to drop everything because you call, or have an emergency. (wow....that's exactly how Carrie is!)
I never thought twice about it because you were my sister. Never once considered turning my back on you, regardless of my treatment. You, on the other hand, seem to have no concern for me or how you affect me.
Now all this shit with Carrie…..is enough.
I have to draw the line somewhere, and everything she has done for the last 5 ½ years, is really fucked up. Her mother and brother did try to warn me 2 weeks after I met her.
After I was with healthy, normal, people for awhile I came to understand how real people operate, and I like it a lot. It took some time to see things clearly, but I was able to view my past relationships with a different set of filters, and because of that, I can own my own actions, and disown other people for theirs.
Looking at what I have with you, based solely on its own merits, I would have to say it is a VERY one sided, UNHEALTHY, Relationship. You have always USED me. Plain as the nose on your face. Well....I deserve better than that.....and now I don't let people treat me like that.
So…..somewhere deep down, I hope things improve for you.
They likely will not, considering your attitude towards life.
Speaking of Carrie...you guys are perfect for each other. You actually feed off one another.
From reading her fictional accounts I see that you guys have really talked yourselves into believing some of her horseshit....one neurotic whack job to the other.
I hope you don't read this and think I am angry. I'm not angry at all! I am just stating facts, and there's nothing emotional about facts.
It's been awhile. Not sure what's going on with you or how you are, so I figured I would take the initiative and make contact.
You know…it's always been that way. I have always been the one trying to keep the lines of communication open. It's always been me, looking for you. How many times have I come down to the east side, UBC, or wherever you were, to take you out someplace nice, then buy you drinks and ? I was on my way to Africa when I heard you were trying to kill yourself, (and no one wanted anything to do with you) so I got off the plane in Edmonton and flew back for 2 weeks. (I got you to court, dealt with your car, got your shit moved, talked Al into storing it, and I hauled you into Vancouver to the recovery house, left money for you, etc etc. with the last minute cancelation, and the rebook, and another rounder from Edmonton....that alone cost me an extra $2300)
I stayed at your place for a couple days when I was getting ready to move back to Van. I was still flush with cash, and paid my way. But when you were staying at my place in Ladner, who was paying for everything? (For 4 people, PLUS trying to get Carries truck on the road.)Who lent you the money to buy the dress you wore to Chelsea's wedding? And lent you spending money? (So much for paying ME back, you OR her.) (The fact that you and Carrie STOLE my car to drive to Sechelt is part of the reason why I lost my job, the real reason is that I was working on Carries truck at Murdys shop after hours..not theft like she says) Before that it was always me calling, it was always me supplying the wheels, the cash, the booze and/or drugs, and my time. (Which can't be replaced)
The only time you ever called me was when you were broke, scared, lonely, or needed a shoulder to cry on.
It's always been you, angry about your upbringing, angry about this or that, feeling sorry for yourself, always the victim, everyone else is to blame, and expecting me to drop everything because you call, or have an emergency. (wow....that's exactly how Carrie is!)
I never thought twice about it because you were my sister. Never once considered turning my back on you, regardless of my treatment. You, on the other hand, seem to have no concern for me or how you affect me.
Now all this shit with Carrie…..is enough.
I have to draw the line somewhere, and everything she has done for the last 5 ½ years, is really fucked up. Her mother and brother did try to warn me 2 weeks after I met her.
After I was with healthy, normal, people for awhile I came to understand how real people operate, and I like it a lot. It took some time to see things clearly, but I was able to view my past relationships with a different set of filters, and because of that, I can own my own actions, and disown other people for theirs.
Looking at what I have with you, based solely on its own merits, I would have to say it is a VERY one sided, UNHEALTHY, Relationship. You have always USED me. Plain as the nose on your face. Well....I deserve better than that.....and now I don't let people treat me like that.
So…..somewhere deep down, I hope things improve for you.
They likely will not, considering your attitude towards life.
Speaking of Carrie...you guys are perfect for each other. You actually feed off one another.
From reading her fictional accounts I see that you guys have really talked yourselves into believing some of her horseshit....one neurotic whack job to the other.
I hope you don't read this and think I am angry. I'm not angry at all! I am just stating facts, and there's nothing emotional about facts.
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