I aint missing you.

 Well....I did it this time. The girl who was more than all others combined, who gave me what I needed, but had never got previously, told me to not contact her again.

I had a bit of a journal going about my dating life since I left Marisa, and I'll admit, it got pretty active last year, and it seemed like it was a new girl every night for a while. And then, Shannon called while I was heading to the lawyers to drop off another 5 grand for my separation legal counsel. I didn't answer, but I could feel the temperature drop about 20 degrees. This is the 1st call from her, since the night at my apartment where she wanted to come by. I Didn’t answer and encouraged me To get on the phone with **Shannon** and tell her I was seeing Michele. Michele was really possessive that night, and it took a while to talk some sense into her. So I thought that was the end of it 

NEWS FLASH a week after she broke up with me, I get my phone bill and it was Ricks daughter Shannon who called, not "hi heels" Shannon.

Now she is only back from a week with her mom and Ken. Her mom is in advanced stage dementia, and she is very emotional over that. I misrepresented my activities concerning going to emergency and having this chunk of metal removed from my shoulder. I got to Emerg at 10 the night previous, and by 4 AM I was tired of waiting and went home. The triage guy had looked at it and said they would have to cut that, and begin antibiotics. He was going on n about picking up medication at the shoppers by my place. I went there after picking Michelle up, but all that was there was my Dr em prescription, viagra and dexedrine. Thats when she found I had not seen an actual Dr. Because of what was going on in her life, I just thought it was easier ti say I saw him all taken care of rather than the 1/2 hour spiel of allnthese tedious items, Just thought it was saving time and energy.

Then she said she looked at one of my old journals, which spelled out my exploits online dating.

I am sick to my stomach over this. but....I. will respect her wishes, and at her request, will not contact her again, even if it's killing me. (Well, I failed at that plan.)

I Hear you learn a lesson when you break up from a relationship and yeah my lesson was when she pulled away from me like that in the truck I should’ve done one of two things I should’ve pulled over and made her understand what was going on and how I felt or I should’ve just let her go,

Looking back  I had the power to change things, I had a chance I didn’t See it for what it wasNo it’s too late? This morning the cops called and said not to contact her anymore

now its 5 weeks later, I've been to Mexico City for Franks wedding, and then 6 days in Cabo san Lucas (los Cabos) Ive been back 2 weeks now, all the bullshit I went through with this cover shit and testing and retesting) and the cops were here again to tell me not to contact Michele. I assured them I had done nothing since talking to the last ones, attempted to contact her, except for dropping the drum off, which I imagine is the instance they are talking about. they have no idea how well behaved I've been, considering whats gone on, and how,

Anyhow thats over. I am in the leave it alone stage. Major bit of baggage, hmmmmm

Then theres the Marisa thing, and the Rose thing, and the shannon(s) thing. and Wendy, Rita, Kim, Island shannon, Nancy 1 and 2, Chelsea, 

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